Brain... So... Tired (-> hair dryer) (6/1/26)

All questions will go unanswered. I find myself at the realization that all I'd thought I'd known was false, and it is profoundly vulnerable. To know that all questions will go unanswered. I am isolated in the great mass.

Will god not give me what I want? And I'm his refusal, do I reject him?
I want to ride atop a dragonfly, god. Can I ride atop a dragonfly? And can him and I be great friends?
"No. You must make use of what I have given you. You must learn to control your desire... Unbridled desire is to root of power, and power is the ill of all mankind. Make use of your tools, find love in the atomical, but you may not ride atop a dragonfly."

I Throw a Fit.....

Is surrealism as a monument to the natural a pagan idea? The idea that realism fails to acknowledge the lack of objective truth in the world, and that the only truth is perception? Internal? Does the internal truth lead to the desire to manipulate ones own reality? To obscure reality to match ones own internal view?.... Isn't that what power is? Isn't that the kind of magick Crowley taught?...
I'm unsure.