If we are Adam and Eve, god's separated child fighting amongst ourself, where have we gone wrong? I see the glow of god in my eyes. Holy defiance. Rationalizing, intellectualizing, lost amongst myself. Is the answer in acceptance? In simply admitting ignorance? In letting go? Salvation must be an admittance of ignorance. And suddenly, I do feel guilty. God forgive me for how lost I am. I am all mankind.
(Have you ever called out to god? In times of helplessness? I feel shame for how little I pray. I only pray now that I suffer. It's the only natural thing to do in helplessness.)