Complaining (12/13/23)

I don't feel passionate. I don't feel invigorated. I feel defeated, and my mind and body want to give up. Uzumaki. I am spinning down the drain.

I want more than this. Something has got to change. But what? It's my responsibility now, and that's what's fucked up. I've gotten rid of the people that were dragging me down, and now I'm left with myself. Repeating fragments of old memories. What do traumatized people do? Is it my turn to abuse? How can I get out of this, constantly losing and finding myself again? Fuck this. I'm tired of complaining.